hey readers!
haizz....
haizz....
haizz....
i just dont know what to do now....
although i have make up my mind....
im still doubtful...
idk....
people...
u know how complicated this problem can be as it relates to family and education?
both are the most important in my life...
do i need to mention whats my problem all about??
do feel free to read my previous post...
thats the problem im talking about....

ok....
to be specific....
let me tell u....

i have decided to go higher nitec....
and at the same time take my olevels as a private candidate....
my aunt and mr koh supported my decision.....
but....
theres plenty of problems....
firstly....
the private papers's fee is expensive....
it can cost me up to $2400 in total...
second...
if i happen to take this decision....
meaning i have to handle two things at a time....
its multi task thingy....
so yeah....
ive planned...
weekdays....
morning...schooling at hi-nitec...
afternoon go to juying sec....
seek help from the teachers....
so called personal tuition i can say...
then at night...
join groups of current olevels friends to study along....
then weekends....
morning till afternoon...work....after that....
self study till night....
so yeah....
i know its pathetic-ally insane...
but...
ive no choice...
what to do....
anw...
im insane now....
so just bear with that....
the third one...
is very jialat!
i was told that i cant retake my science as private candidate....
as the paper includes the science practical....
and i have to go to school in order to do my practical session....
so meaning...
if i want to retake my olevels as private candidate....
i cant retake my science....
wth!!
science is so important sia...!!
so now....
im in this complicated situation..
i have to re-make up my decision....
its either i go to higher nitec only...
or i retain....
thats the only choice that i have now....

now comparing to both of this....
if i go higher nitec....
i have to go thru it for 2 years..
and by that time...i will be turning 20...
and if i do well for my higher nitec....
i will be joining poly...and defer my NS...
this takes me about 3 years to get the diploma cert....
and by that time....
i will be turning 23....
then i must serve my NS....
wth!
23 years old serving NS?
ahaha!
weird!
and after serving NS...
my age will be 25....
after that...im planning to get myself a place at university....
if i get...this will takes me about 3years...to get my degree cert....
and my age will be 28....wahh!!
dh tue pe!!!
then...i think its a must to get myself a job...
and quickly enter into marriage life....
so yeah...
thats if i choose to go to higher nitec....

but if i choose to retain....
it takes me a year to secure my place in poly....
and then....
i will enter poly in an age of 19....
after three years of diploma...my age will be 22...
so yadayadayada....
i end up myself to get a job with a degree cert in a age of 27....
so...
now i have to choose whether to choose 1st or 2nd options..
haizzz....
GOD...
please show me the right pathway....
amin!
okalh people....
will update u about this next time k....
tc people!
see u when u view my blog k?
toodles readers!

Hey people... Actually i have no mood to blog...
but when i think back...
what's blog are for...
then i realised that blogs are meant for me to express whatever feelings and problems that im going thru no matter how big it is and how long it takes for me to blog...
so yeah...
i decided to blog...
yesterday...
early in the morning...
6.26am in exact...
my lil sis woke me up...
she said ,"abg...theres a msg from MOE.."
i was like...OMG!
so i decided to ask my lil sis to go out of my room...and i closed the door...
and read it for myself...
the msg stated,"MOE:MUHAMMAD YAZID BIN ISHAK i regret to inform u that your JAE 2010 is not successful."
i was like...
WTF!
haizz...
i had an hour of thinking what should i do now...
so thenafter...
i decided to text my friends...
and suprisingly...
most of them were awake....
so yeah...
had an hour of call conferencing with four of my friends...
im terribly sad that most of my friends got a place into poly....
except for me nazrul and shamel....
but fortunately for shamel....
with the help of JPSAE...
he got himself a place in RP...
now left me and naz...
i have no idea hows nazrul now...
but he said that hes appealing today...
so am i...
i have no choice....
so yeah...
But frankly...
i have this huge feeling of guilty...
towards my parents...
Ive realised that i have make them dissappointed...
and also embarassment....
they will most probably embarassed towards their family as the whole family knew about me getting into a poly....
but the fact is that i have not yet....

*sighed*


I have this thought...
thoughts of the possibilities....
for now...ive thought only 3 possibilities...
1st...
if my appeal is successful...then yeah...i will be in seventh heaven obviously....
2nd...
if my appeal is unsuccessful...i may end up in Hi-nitec...
3rd...
if my appeal is unsuccessful...i may also end up retaining...


so now....
i will focus on my 2nd and 3rd possibilities....
the 2nd one....
i dont mind if i end my myself up in Hi-nitec....
but if mindset tells me that...
its hard to pursue urself getting into a poly after 2 years of Hi-nitec....
i might end up serving my NS....
so yeah...
if i take my 3rd possibility...
somehow its a good thing...
bcos...
i have the experience taking the o levels....
and someway it helps me alot....
in addition...things that u will be studying is the same old thing that uve been doing for the past 5 years....
so....
its possible for me to do well for my 2nd olevel sitting....
and if i get better COP...it will be a guarantee i will get my course of my choice....
and it takes only a year to do that than Hi-nitec....
u feelin' me people..??
but...
the problem is...
my parents disagree if i have to retain....
idk why...
so yeah....
i will have to wait till the end of today to decide for my future....
so people...
till here...
and a very huge thankful to u readers who bothers to view my blog and read my post....
and a undescribable feeling of thankful to my frens and cousins who have always been there for me when im in need for help...
i love u guys!
tc people!
bye!

hello readers!

this period of time..

people in singapore are in the falalaland

we should be sleeping now...

but unluckily for me...

i cant sleep...

since 12 am..

i kept daydreaming...

at the same time...

thinking of something...

but now i cant recalled back what i have thought just now...

bear with my STM readers...

sorry...

ahahha!

so...

yeah...

yesterday...

woke up at 10...

accompanied my sis to supermarket...

at same time bought wax...

its like finally i can wax my hair...

ahahha!

guess what...

yesterday...

i have made one of my clumsiest mistake of my like...

u know what...

i went to deposit nachine nearby...

to deposit money to my bank acc...

after take my receipt...

i slumberly walked off...
and meaning...
i didnt take my atm card out...

after about 30 mins..

i then realised that my atm card was not with me...

so i went back to the machine...

and my atm card was nowhere to be found...

so yeah...

had to make a report today...

haizzz...

clumsy me!!

erghh!

so..yeah...

after went back home...

i decided to take short nap...

out of my suprise...

i took a 5 hours of sleeping...

so...woke up at around 8 pm...

then...

went to living room...

joined my family watch senario the movie...

the newest one...

it is one of my fav !

really laugh my ass off...

after that..

had my dinner...

then...

on my com for while...

then...yeah...

switch to laptop...

so yeah...

here i am...

hope for a better day today...

ok lah...

i better sleep now before my eyebags become worse...

tc readers!

good day!

hello readers!

what?

how am i?

yeah...im fine...[ahahah]

so how are u all??

hehe...

hmm...

today...

i had a normal day...

but...a lil bit more than normal..

ahaha!

early in the morning...

i woke up...but...then i decided to sleep again as noones awake yet...

so yeah...

then i woke up at 12...

i was asked to shower...

but i took a very sweet time to get up and go to bathroom...

so...my mum was irritated by it...

guess what comes next...

her yelling uh!!

ahahaha!

so yeah...

she yelled at me!

then i was like....

sprint to my bathroom as tho im running for shuttle run sia...

ahahaha!!

after that...

mum asked me to go to market to buy some groceries stuff...

so i went...out of my suprise...

my dad got his pay today...

so yeah!

but...

unfortunately...

my mum decided to forked out money again to buy new laptop for my 2nd sis again...as last month...she just bought for her one...its just that the 1st laptop have been given to my lil sis...i was like...wtf??

then how about me??

im the one who will be going to poly...and i didnt get my own laptop...

so yeah...

at the afternoon...

was forced to accompany my sis buy the laptop...

and my job is to carry the laptop...

i was fucking pissed!

but nvm...

just give in...

so...yeah...

after that went back to JP to have a dinner at MCD...

then...went back home straight...

and here i am...blogging!

ahaha!

ok then...

till here...

tc readers!

adious amigos!!

This will be my last post of the day....
but its gonna be long....
bear with it....

this is about my new love story....
theres this girl name D[cant reveal her name]...
ive known her since i was sec 3...
so its been 2 years + ago....
but we've lost contact after few months of friendship.......
so yeah....since then i move on with my life as per normal....
suprisingly....last november....she reappeared into my life....
since then...
i felt something weird....
its then realised that ive fallen for her....
so...yeahh....
few weeks later....i confessed my feelings to her...but she kept saying dont know...
she was doubtful with her feelings....
so...nvm...i will wait....
so after few days....she finally told me that she love me by saying I LOVE YOU...
so...yeah... i was in seventh heaven!
so at that point of time...we r one step closer to become love partners....
unfortunately...theres something happen....
its her family affair....
i cant tell u...bcos i have promise her...so yeah...
sorry...
but i can tell u...this problem really force to break us apart....
she told me to forget her....
as she said theres no other solution....
if we happen to be love partners....it will be a waste of time....as at the end of the day...she have to leave me...
to me its not...but....
i have to consider it....
so i took few days to forget her....but frankly i cant....
its hard....afterthen...i discuss with her that we still can carry on to be love partners....
i was so shocked she doesnt agree with that....
i wonder why....
so i persuaded her to tell...after few tries persuading her....
she finally admitted that her love towards me became lesser and lesser day by day...
i pondered....
after days digging out the reason....
she admitted that theres a third party in between us...i was shocked its H....
bcos in the first place...H liked D's fren....so they've been online chatting each other...so i dont mind....
but as time goes by....
i observed they have been meeting each other and on the phone...
so thats when i began to feel jealous....
bcos why....?
bcos i love her...
so...after D told me that H have gave up on her fren...i began to suspect something is very wrong now....
my suspicious was that H begin to change direction to D...
and recently....D told me that her love towards me has put into test when H start to courting on her....so my suspicious was right....so after talking about this matter...
we concluded that D have to choose either me or H...
although i felt it was unfair for me...
but nvm....
i gave her 2 to 3 days to decide...
i was worried though....
but her words really cool me down....
she told me.....
"yazid....no matter what happens...i still love you..."
yeah....thats about it on that nyte....
last tuesday....
i received a miss call from her....
i was so happy....
but at the same time nervous....
at that time...shamel was with me....
so yeah....
so called her back....
out of my suprise...a guy pick up.....
he said: hello...is this yazid...?
i said:yeah...whos this?
he said:this is her bf...
i was fcuking stunned!
i said:eh...whos this lah?whats ur name?
he said:not important...
i said:ouh...okay...if thats true...what do u want...?
he said:i just want to warned u...stay away from D...dont disturb her life ever again..
i was like....since when sia i DISTURB her life?
he continue:if u call her again i will find u....
i was like...wahh!u think im scared??
then i said:ouh...ok then...deal...
he said:eh seriously...dont disturb her ever again....if u still insist of callling...
the next call u will receive is D's dad...
i said:ouh k then...deal!
but at that moment...my heart broke into trilions of pieces!
haizz....so yeah....
thats about it...
now...im on the verge of forgetting her....
and move on....with broken herat...AGAIN!
its my second consecutive time being in this situation....
what to do...im fated to face this....

message to her:
Love, firstly i want to thank u for everything....
and i appreciated ur beautiful lies...
i admitted that i aint ur type...
sorry if my presence in ur life feels like a burden to u....
and a very huge thank u for hurting my feelings and breaking my heart into pieces....
so...for the very last time...i wanna say that u r the best thing i nvr knew i needed...and
I LOVE YOU!


ok then....
before i shed tears...
its better im off to bed....
tc peeps...

[PS:people...is my story like in the novel??ahahaha!lameshit me!]

adious!!

Hey People!
Yazid is back !
hahaa!
i know im lame...bear with that!
so...yeah...i know i owe u readers an apology for troubling urself viewing my blog without any update....
Im sorry !
Frankly...my reason is...
5% - busy...
5% - no idea what to blog...
90% - hehe...LAZY !!!nyahahahaha!

What to do...
im a lazy person when it comes to blog....
but suprisingly...i like to blog....
its like i can express whatever feelings that i felt in this blog....
hehehe....
so...
yeahh...
what??
what o levels?
hows my results??
how the fuck u people know that im taking O levels??
ergghh!
oklah!
i surrender myself....
yes...i got my O levels results....
i can say...it was atrocious![ouh fuck!!did i spell it wrongly?]
but better than my prelims for overall performance....
prelims...
i got 33 points for L1R4...
hehehe....
o levels...i got 27 points...
and sadly for me...
my wish to get two distinctions for my maths and malay didnt come true...
but well...
its ok....
i got b4 for my maths and b3 for malay....
haizzz....
after my beloved form teacher gave me the form....
i was so happy that i got form A which means i may get to go to poly....
but in the 1st place....i have not tear out the form....
so still feeling thrill!
the rest of my mates all running away to go to one different corner...to individually see their result secretly....
so when i was tearing the form....i was told that the code starts with letter V...is the hi-nitec code....so the first code that i saw was....C***...i was like!!
ahhhhhhh!!!
it was nyg poly code!!!
so after counting....
i counted that ive 29 choice of courses in all poly...except....REPUBLIC!!
idkw there was no republic choice for me....
its was kinda weird that the so called bad poly in SG...i didnt get...but all other 4 poly i get....
WTF!!
so...now...after days of thinking and choosing the courses...ive decided to choose IT course from 4 polys for my 1st 4 choices...the 5th one was mobile and network services....from TP....i will not mention the others...as most of it are boring courses to share about...
so yeah....

thats about it....